That title sounds sad huh! It's not meant to be but it's so true, I've cried more in my years as a Mother than any other time in my life. I'm sure most people would tell me it's my hormones.. I have had 6 babies in 8 years, kind of a roller coaster for this body of mine but I think it's more than that. I don't cry all the time or every day but being a Mom seems to amplify all my emotions; I love harder, I hurt harder and my frustrations are stronger... my tears flow from joy, from laughter, from heartache and frustration.
Being a Mom makes me cry....
because I can't protect my kids from the suffering I know they have to go through
because some days I have nothing left to give them
because I can't fight their battles for them
because my heart aches for those women who want to but can't be Mothers
because these kids make me laugh so hard I cry
because I hear their little prayers and watch their relationships with Christ grow
because they love me so unconditionally
because sometimes it just feels good to cry.. for no apparent reason
because my body has not belonged to me in years, and it shows
because my "season" of baby growing in my belly looks to be turning into just baby raising (tears well up just typing that.. I'm such a sap!!)
because God has trusted me with so many little lives and that responsibility can weigh heavily
because I can't grab up all the little babies that are hurting and bring them into my home
because my kids are growing, growing, growing too fast
I cry because these precious children of mine deserve the best of me and they don't get the best everyday but they show me grace and love me so much anyway. So yeah, being a Mom means that I shed more tears but I can't think of 6 better reasons to be crying :)
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Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
It's all about Perspective
So many days I let stupid little things suck the joy right out of me right from the get go. I can feel it happening, my demands and sighs getting louder, my tolerance for shenanigans lowering and my eye rolling out of annoyance becoming more frequent.. geesh- who is this ornery old lady?! I let myself get wrapped up in the crazy morning routines of getting 3 kids ready for school, packing lunches and snacks and getting homework IN the bags along with breakfasts for 5 and breastfeeding the baby and now snow gear.. ugh.
There are plenty of people that would look at just our morning demands and give me a get out of jail free card for being ornery but it doesn't have to be that way. I can choose to be more joyful, tolerant, patient and loving towards the world in the morning and all day if I would just change my perspective.
I wake up thinking of all I need to do and what I expect of the kids in a pretty short amount of time and all of the ways that will probably go wrong even with my best intentions. Those days that I hop out of bed going a million miles an hour are the ones that I have to change my perspective on the things that I think are important, I have 2 girls that have to be woken with very gentle hands and voices or the day is pretty much shot. Because they are like waking hibernating bears I have to take my time waking them, dressing them, and gently reminding them of morning routines. I have to change from organized, on-time, get-stuff-done Mom to laid back, coddling, winging it Mom! Some mornings my girls' hair is laughable and their outfits look like I dressed them in the dark and they all had toast and honey for breakfast.. but we are all happy :)
It's easy to let situations and surroundings dictate our perspective on life and while I too am totally guilty of this I need to make it as easy as choosing a better attitude, regardless of whats going on around me. I know I will never be one of those people who just walks around smiling just because I'm breathing but I can choose to smile when I make eye contact... and not avoid eye contact so I don't have to start a conversation in the grocery store- guilty as charged!!
So each day I will do my best to chose joy from the get go, it may be hard to find but I wake up to 6 really good reasons to look high and low! I will do my best to move the happiness gauge from someone pissed in my cheerios... which is a very real possibility in this house, to farting rainbows- that's always a good goal, right?!
There are plenty of people that would look at just our morning demands and give me a get out of jail free card for being ornery but it doesn't have to be that way. I can choose to be more joyful, tolerant, patient and loving towards the world in the morning and all day if I would just change my perspective.
I wake up thinking of all I need to do and what I expect of the kids in a pretty short amount of time and all of the ways that will probably go wrong even with my best intentions. Those days that I hop out of bed going a million miles an hour are the ones that I have to change my perspective on the things that I think are important, I have 2 girls that have to be woken with very gentle hands and voices or the day is pretty much shot. Because they are like waking hibernating bears I have to take my time waking them, dressing them, and gently reminding them of morning routines. I have to change from organized, on-time, get-stuff-done Mom to laid back, coddling, winging it Mom! Some mornings my girls' hair is laughable and their outfits look like I dressed them in the dark and they all had toast and honey for breakfast.. but we are all happy :)
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| A family picture taken in the afternoon with plenty of time to wake up and get happy :) |
It's easy to let situations and surroundings dictate our perspective on life and while I too am totally guilty of this I need to make it as easy as choosing a better attitude, regardless of whats going on around me. I know I will never be one of those people who just walks around smiling just because I'm breathing but I can choose to smile when I make eye contact... and not avoid eye contact so I don't have to start a conversation in the grocery store- guilty as charged!!
So each day I will do my best to chose joy from the get go, it may be hard to find but I wake up to 6 really good reasons to look high and low! I will do my best to move the happiness gauge from someone pissed in my cheerios... which is a very real possibility in this house, to farting rainbows- that's always a good goal, right?!
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